So yea. Hi.

Where to start.

I moved, to those who don't know. I live up near Indy, in a small-ish town called Edinburgh. I'm moving back though, somewhat soon. The devil lives up here, seriously though, life up here has been nothing but bad luck after bad luck.

Well, I'm with someone. Mouse, or Liz, whoever you are. To you GOPPLARPer's, she's from the games. I met her around 2 years ago, during Steve's first Echoes game. Which started around the tail end of the Ghods game.

To those of you who have no clue what I'm talking about, we go to role play events together.

Well, after a lot of "trouble." We got together. I'm very happy, she is not only what I wanted, but also what I need. She's been referred to as a female me. We have most everything in common.

Either way.



Well, shortly after we started dating we moved into an apartment with 3 others, was a big apartment. And no this wasn't spur of the moment. I had been planning the move for a while.

It was a bad idea. Me and her didn't have jobs, thought we looked. Unlucky we were. The other 3 had factory jobs, which as factory jobs are, they were unreliable. Well, we got 2 months behind in rent. The apartment complex worked with us, gave us time (seeing as how the reason we got behind was that the 5th guy stole our rent and one of our cars) but to no avail. We left.

Me, Liz, and guy 2 Chris, moved up here to Edinburgh, where we had a home and jobs. As of November 19th we were officially evicted from the old place. Not a bad eviction not much money to pay off.

Though, our apartment had been broken into while we were away. Over 1000 dollars worth of my stuff, electronics, jewelry, games, all stolen. Liz's iPod, and other stuff. All gone. We weren't happy..... That's what I get for not being able to bring everything with me when I moved. Chris's mother was in too much of a hurry and she was my only way of getting there.



Well, anyways. More shit went down. I'll bullet it.

*dick district manager that, in time, found ways to get rid of all three of us, none just
*brakes giving out
*car getting impounded
*difficulty finding job
*and the newest, two weeks have past since the last time my job gave me hours, why is this??

So yea, we're moving back, got a place. Ready to come home.


Also, I broke one of my strongest belief's. After, all of this trouble, the old apartment, the theft, my car troubles, and something bigger then all the rest that I didn't mention for personal reasons. The one thing I cherish most in the world has yet to change and is still with me. I wanted to solidify that.

So, as of Nov. 15 2008. Myself and Elizabeth Schneider are engaged. No it's really not sudden, it had a lot of thought put into. 48 hours of consecutive thought.

Also as an announcement I am proud to make. My best friend Derek Coomer and his girlfriend Courtney Miranda are also engaged. Sparked by me and Liz, I think so O.-

Tonight was horrible. For several reasons. Partially because at times it was wonderful. Which only serve to remind how horrible it could be.
(edit) Well, I wouldn't say horrible. I did cry harder tonight then I have in a long time. And almost a second time, and third. But only that event was horrible. The rest, just kinda saddened me.

Yes, my status change has to do with you.

You want something new, something spontaneous? I could give that. Would you take it?

I want to talk to you, about what's on my mind, but can I? I'm not sure I can. But I'll try.

I may just point you to this. Let you start what I want to talk about.



Sigh.

Will you listen? I know you will. What will come, iono. I think, I hope maybe...

Hiyo people. I've been a bit bleh lately. But first the highlights.

I got a job, a third shift stocking job at Meijers (like Walmart). Yea I know, I deviated from my career, but Theatre doesn't pay well, and this is only small (32 hours a week).

Hmm been doing muh larping a lot/too much. Too many games.

So the good:

I've been hanging out with my wonderful friends a lot. All the time, it's great. I have my job, which is good. Uhm...... forgot where I was going, damn you Becker! *shakes fist*

The not as good:

I've had insomnia for a week. Uhm, I haven't quite gotten used to my schedule yet. Hmm, me and Ray split up, and then that followed by a good bit of turmoil and what-not. Strangely not much between me and her though.


So yea. I'm kind of meh...... Not really sure what to do with myself right now. Hmm, I should move some of my other blogs over to this one.

Hmm, well it seems to be the trend lately to write blogs about how your feeling, so ok. Let's give this a shot.

I'm a bit confused. Something very interesting came up and I don't know quite how to handle it. I had completely settled my mind, then something else happened and I stopped to think. I think too much. For now I'm sitting and watching, trying to decide how to handle this. I've asked a handful of people how I should handle it, leaving out details here and there. If you haven't heard, don't feel bad, this time I chose to mostly ask people further away from my normal confidants. And really not many know full details, so no one feel hurt.

After that though I've been motivated lately. Working out all the time,not even letting myself heal fully (bad me). As of now I have; a pulled shoulder muscle, an aching ankle, bruised knee muscle, severely jarred wrist, strained upper thigh/crotch muscle, abrasion on elbow, and bruised knuckles. And I have a full Larp tomorrow. No bother though, I was hit by a truck and went to larp two days later with two sprained ankles and severe leg bruising. Oddly enough, I have a high constitution, which is not an aspect I ever gave myself.

I feel my self improving. For those who don't know, that's my drving goal, self-improvement. In every facet. It's a never-ending goal that always leaves me pleased and dissappointed. But it's me.

I feel my kicks going higher and lighter, not as much effort to get the same effects as before. I can lay out about 30 punches on the bag before hurting myself, which is much better then before. Everything is improvement bit by bit, less so on the mental side though, I've been lax.

I still have no job, need one bad. Money's almost gone, I hate this cycle.

So what's my subject? How bout "Flutter Kick," that about sums up how I feel right now and my life lately. Flutter kick.

TYPE YOUR FIRST NAME WITH YOUR...

1. FINGERS: Chase

2. CHIN: cbzxd

3. ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: chasr

4. ELBOW: xdhyaqsae3s

5. NOSE: chase

6. PALM: cx yasecd

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List 12 of your original characters: do I even have that many?

1. Slash (main character to my series, Ruler of an island)
2. D'Lansi (^his father and old ruler)
3. Hunter (very old Larp character from VtM, a high level Toreador)
4. guy from libby rp (a character from a cyber punk story)
5. Sean mitchell (my character from a current running Mage the ascension game, euthanatos correspondence disciple)
6. Odin (character from a home made game, Thinks he's a god)
7.Setzer (adaptation of the FFVI character into a larp)
8. Care in breeze (old character in the werewolf the apocalypse character that I ST on, silent strider)
9. Speaks of Mist (my ST character for said above game, Gurahl)
10. Kio (coyote NPC for above game that I play)
11.Helios (spirit of the sun, for above game, a pack has him as a totem)
12. Coyote (super spirit, several nuwisha are in the game)

01) Who would make a better college professor, 6 or 11 ?
An insane man who thinks he is Odin the Norse God? Or the spirit of the sun........Uhm......Odin. I guess....

02) Do you think 2 is hot? How hot?
Uhm, I only have a rough idea of how he looks. But, no not realy.

03) 12 sends 8 on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?
No clue, but surprisingly this question actually works, since coyote is a powerful npcs spirit in a Larp and care in breeze was my character when I was a player instead of a narrator

04) What is or would be 9's favorite book?
He doesn't know how to read. He's a Were-bear.


05) Would it make more sense for 2 to swear fealty to 6 , or the other way around?
Uhm, the first way probably. Since his son is very symbolic of Odin. and his son is the greater ruler.


06) For some reason, 5 is looking for a roommate. Should s/he share a studio apartment
with 9 or with 10 ?
Uhm well Mist, since Kio is an ethereal spirit. But then again, Sean is a mage. Gotta love World of Darkness


07) 2 , 7 and 12 have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?
Uhm.....an ancient king, an airship pilot, and a powerful spirit of trickery. I'm sure the first two would be dead after dinner.

08) 3 challenges 10 to a duel. What happens?
A vampire challenges one of coyotes minions to a duel. Coyotes wraith turns the vampire into a tree.

09) If 1 stole 8's most precious possession, how would s/he get it back?
Popping out of the Umbra grabbing it, then popping back in.

10) Suggest a title for a story in which 7 and 12 both attain what they most desire.
Into the Sky

11) What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4 and 1 to work together?
Time machine.

12) If 7 visited you for the weekend, how would you get along?
Well, I'd assume?

13) If you could command 3 to perform any one task or service for you, what would it be?
I vampire with Auspex. Oh god, I could get anything.

14) Does anyone on your friends list write or draw 11 ?
No

15) If 2 had to choose sides between 4 and 5 , which would it be?
Prolly Sean, Mage and ancient king work well together

16) What might 10 shout while charging into battle?
In the name of coyote!!

17) If you chose a song to represent 8 , which song would you choose?
I lost my grip on the character, so I have no clue.

18) 1 , 6 , and 12 are having dim sum at a Chinese restaurant. There is only one scallion pancake left, and they all reach for it at the same time. Who gets to eat it?
Wow, the three most powerful people/things on here. Main character, god of all things, and obsenely powerful spirit. I'd go with coyote.

19) What might be a good pick-up line for 2 to use on 10 ?
Nice face.

20) What would 5 most likely be arrested for?
Murder or breaking and entering. prolly the last, since his mastery sphere of magic is Space. Teleportation and all.

21) What is 6's secret?
Oh god, what isn't there. He has both eyes, he's fucking nuts. Uhm he's both Odin and Thor. Etc.

22) If 11 and 9 were racing to a destination, who would get there first?
Helios is the celestine spirit of the sun, Mist is a werebear. He who touches all, against he who doesn't move much. Yea.......

23) If you had to walk home through a bad neighborhood late at night, would you feel safer in the company of 7 or 8 ?
Really? Care in breeze. Pacifist werewolf for the win

24) 1 (Slash) and 9 (Speaks of Mist) reluctantly team up to save the world from the threat posed by 4's (CP guy) sinister secret organization. 11 (Helios) volunteers to help them, but it is later discovered that he/she is actually a spy for 4 (CP Guy). Meanwhile, 4 (CP guy) has kidnapped 12 (Coyote) in an attempt to force their surrender. Following the wise advice of 5 (Sean Mitchell), they seek out 3 (Hunter), who gives them what they need to complete their quest?
What the hell am I supposed to say to this. In fact I'm gonna go up there and edit the list so that you know better who everone is, and not answer this.

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1.) List Four fandoms you have.
Mage the ascension, and stuff


2.) Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
yea, I'm getting tired of this survey lol


3.) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
nope


4.) List four people that you look up to the most.
shrug

5.) How many pets do you own as of now?
myself, 2, in the house, 18

6.) Which do you prefer white or black?
both equally

7.) Who is your most played character?
Uhm all the larp characters

8.) Choose one or the other, not both:
the other

9.) Name three aspects that tell who you are.
uhg later

KILLED THE REST!

~Wir wünschen sie frölich Weihnacht
Wir wünschen sie frölich Weihnacht
Wir wünschen sie frölich Weihnacht
Und ein glücklich neues Jahr!~


Close to Christmas, and a merry one to you all.

Things are good I guess. I'm working at Actors Theatre in Louisville. Best job I've ever had and I'm exceedingly lucky to have it. But sadly it's nearing completion. In theatre nothing ever lasts. Even the full-time employees at Actors are only on contract for a year and they have no work for 3 months. I'm not sure if my contract will get renewed. I can just hope.

That's bout all, thought I'd have more but I blanked, tomorrow surely.

Lol, i can't believe you have completely siphoned me out of your internet life because of I fight I didn't even mean to start. Sigh, but your too bull-headed to have listened to what I had to say. You were only concerned with what you thought. That's pathetic.

Either, here's my back story for a character of mine in a LARP.

The day would have been nice. It would have been peacefull. It would have been my birthday. But not this day, this day was loud. Violent, everything but peaceful. It had been that way for almost a year now. Walking every day, little rest.
Yells echoed everywhere in the distance. Mostly yells that I didn't fully understand. I hadn't yet picked up german, even after so long. I just haven't had the incentive. It's so foreign to me.
"Stehen sie Maden!"
That sentence I did understand. I jerked upwards without a moments thought and stood at attention. I stared deep into the red face of the soldier. He shouted at the stragglers, one old man took to long, he was struck. I turned my head back forward and closed my eyes.


I was only seventeen years old, seventeen and unlucky. In France, down only for a day with my parents, was I caught. Der Jude, fangst der Jude. I remember them shouting that at one another, as I ran away from my parents. It didn't help, they were faster, smarter. All it did was leave me without my parents. Now I was alone.
I'm from Great Britian, had I stayed home, I would have stayed safe. Certain things may not have happened that made me what I am today. I would probably still be Jewish. I would probably still live in Great Britian. The wars over, been over. Eighty something years or so now. Europe's better, it has to be, but I can't bring myself to go back over there. Though, through it all and most importantly. Had these events not happened to me. I wouldn't be what I am now, what makes me unique.


It happened near to six months after I had arrived at the camp. I don't know which one it was, I never gatheredmy thoughts enough to find that out. It was in southern Germany though, very near the French border. That I can be certain. I was housed with other of my kind. It was cramped, it was uncomfortable.There was no solace, no one had faith anymore. I wanted to be depressed, to be dead inside. No one tried to change that.
One by one those around me were taken away. Burned, shot, I don't even know what they did to most of them. I couldn't understand the orders. It's like my mind shut out the language to prevent me from knowing what would happen.
Then, came my day. It was late in the day, just hitting dusk. One of the SS officers was surveying my group. He picked and choose who would be destroyed that night. I didn't listen. That is until a hand struck my face. The officers face was livid, he had been talking to me, I had been ignoring him.
"Stehen Jude," I stood, "möchten sie diese nacht sterben. Jude?" I gulped, I didn't know what he had said, but I knew what I had heard. Die.
He watched my face and burst with laughter, after he finished he turned behidn him and called an order, "Hängt ihn." He walked away.
The guards grabbed me, there were others but I didnt care to see who. The guards drug me outside and down two blocks. To where a gallows was set up. Expertly crafted it was, except for one small point. A flaw in the base, one that could collapse the entire assemble with time. A strange to notice at time like that, I'm sure I had thought.
As I was forced to wait, I watched. Not the gallows, but everythign around it. most notably the fence. Not far, maybe a hundred meters. But too far to run, I would have been shot in an instant. So for the first time in a half a year, I prayed. I prayed for absolution. I pray to live, to not die this forced, fake death. I prayed, and I was answered. Not from any God, but from within. I awoke. And I was free'd.
I opened my eyes to see myself standing several dozens of meters outside the fence. I was confused, but for once in several months, I thought clearly. I ran.
I got away, I don't know how. Perhaps the guards paid more attention to what was in the fence, rather then what was outside. I do know now what it was a did, not that I know how. I still have yet to be able to replicate it though. But I study, more-so then any other sphere, in the one that saved my life. So that soon Imay be able to do that of my own free will.

Now I am Euthanatos. I am Albeiro, calm, even minded, calculating. I am in service to Georgina Jones, one person I know truly I can trust. It's been eighty something years, yet I'm still here. I don't know how, but I don't really care. I guess I've physically aged alittle over 10 years. Mentally though, I've grown hundreds. I've seen a lot, been through a lot.
One night, a long time ago, I twisted fate. I was Jude #A10308. I am, Shaun Mitchell.

And I have to work at nine. If I were malicious. I would have went to sleep.

I stayed, and made amends with the person I hurt unintentionally. The other though I didn't. Couldn't.

I guess I'll sleep, why is it always night time, that I find something to busy my mind? Why can't my mind ever be blank at night.

For some reason, I just got the desire to do callouts.... Shrug.

Libby: I love you dear. I'm glad to have you back in my life. You are one of my dearest friends and more-so then anyone you helped me develop to who I am now. You are why I think now, why I strive to use my brain. you fueled my search for knowledge. You have given me many gifts that I will never forget.

Ray: I love you too dear. We are not at an easy point right now. But whenever I am with you the world stops, I love holding you, feeling your soft form in my arms. I care more for you then anything. But i'm sorry. I'm sorry that I can't focus my mind to maintain that when we're apart. You try and try and you love and love. I love you too. I appreciate you more then anyone. You are at the top of the list of people that I know would be there.

Rebecca: I love you too. We've grown up together. I've known you since 1st grade and even though we went a few years not talking much, you are still dear to me. I'm glad you down the hall from me know. Whenever I get lonely at work I can see you. I miss you Rebecca. I am glad that you have found love. I'm glad you have someone who is willing to travel to world to support you. That makes me happier then anything to see you shine in life. To see that you have developed into the world you wanted.

Kris: Love for you too my gay bunny. I miss you too. I miss you cuddly big gay hugs and such. heh. I'm glad thoguh that I get to see you frequently now, even if it is only once a month. And I'm glad you have found love. You've work so hard for it, and have taken so many wounds in the process. I think he's good for you. I like him. I love that your happy.

The others, in short:

K: I had fun with you even though I don't mention it much. I miss the fun at larp.

A: I miss you, It's been so long , I feel I don't know you much anymore. i don't like that

B K: You make me think, I enjoy that.

Moogie: You are wonderful Eyore, of Death's brood, you and Kris are the best.

Derek: If you actually give proof that you still read any of this anymore. I'll add you up there.

More later, I've reached the end of my ropes. Sleep now.

For those who are not in the know I shall put you there.

Last thursday I was hit and ran over by a truck.

They decided to make a right turn while I was walking across the pedestrian crosswalk. They bumped into me, knocked me over and quite thoroughly ran over my left ankle. By this point I was already reflexively pressed to the ground luckily, so when my ankle was ran over it was flat and worked more like a speed bump then a stick in the road, luckily for me. Then after tat I rolled out from under the truck and stood, also reflexively.

Spent 3 hours in the ER and so far 4 days with basically nothing but bed rest. I did go to a LARP on saturday though but I was playing Odin. So I spent most of my time sitting anyways. I made a grand Odin, I shall grab pictures.


( The good picture )


( The bright picture )

When I walked into the LARP dressed like that. The first time I was meet with a lot of you look awesome. Then I went back to my car for something and walked up again to different people. They meet me with almost fear lol. One guy tensed up and looked like he was about to attack. Lol then when he finally figured out it was me he thought it was awesome. Made me happy.

Gotta love, outside + darkness + quiet night + dark cloaked and well covered figure walking slowly toward you.

So all-in-all I walked away with:

• 2 sprained ankles

• 12+ severe deep bruises

• scrapes just about everywhere

• 1 busted elbow

• 1 nifty eye patch for odin

• 1 grand night

• 1 quickly diminishing bottle of absolutley wonderful pain killers

• 2 big ol' huge moon boots for muh ankles

• 1 pair o' crutches

• 1 copy of Monte Cook's World of Darkness at a great deal, which will be here on wednesday

• 2 copies of Laws of Ascension Hardcover for the price of 1

Oh and Lastly

• 1 huge ass lawsuit to pay for my new car ^.^ and equally huge ass hospital bill

Never a good idea to run over a pedestrian. Mwashahaha. Yes, there's an s. And that's an end, the Stagesic's just kicked in and now I feel disconnected from my body, not that absolutely grand floating 10 feet up feeling I had in the hospital, but a somewhat less 3 feet feeling. Is nice, but not horribly nice. Bye my lovelies.

I've been scattered lately in my head.

I may quit my job if my interview goes good today.

Still waiting to hear back from Travis at gamestop, having bad thoughts bout that.

Have a new person dear to me, she makes me think, heavily. Since then i've been much more analytical and considering. I've appeared depressed or emo-ish, but I assure you I'm not. I'm just looking at life through the eyes of someone who actually gives a damn now.

New aim name: tenalexanders

Tis an inside homage paid to greatness of many forms.

Getting irritated that my books not here yet.

Didn't sleep last night, sleep schedules getting bad again, this time I really don't care. Odd.

Why do you stay by my side?

[02:03] sirlacis: http://baking.about.com/od/brownies/r/ultimate.htm I AM GONNA MAKE THIS TOMORROW~~~~~
[02:03] sirlacis: Wait no I'm not
[02:03] sirlacis: I don't have chocolate squares
[02:03] sirlacis: SHIT
[02:04] sirlacis: Hmm I have chips though
[02:04] CHeEt or 1010: **hug*8 sorry
[02:04] sirlacis: I... think...
[02:04] sirlacis: *glares at kitchen* I had BETTER have chocolate chips.
[02:04] CHeEt or 1010: use bullyon cubes
[02:04] CHeEt or 1010: beef looks like chocolate
[02:04] sirlacis: ...EW!
[02:04] sirlacis: EW EW EW
[02:04] sirlacis: EW
[02:04] CHeEt or 1010: lmao
[02:04] sirlacis: *dies*

'Wheel of Time' author Robert Jordan dies
3:15PM Tuesday September 18, 2007
Robert Jordan in 2000. Photo / Beth Gwinn

Robert Jordan in 2000. Photo / Beth Gwinn

Best selling fantasy author Robert Jordan has died of a rare blood disease aged 58, it has been reported.

Jordan - whose real name was James Oliver Rigney Jr - wrote the "Wheel of Time" series, which sold millions of books since the first - "The Eye of the World" - was published in 1990.

Associated Press (AP) news agency reported that Jordan died at the Medical University of South Carolina in Charleston on Sunday local time.

He was working on the 12th book of his "Wheel of Time" series at the time of his death.

The books follow Rand al'Thor on his journey to battle ultimate evil.

Jordan had spent most of his life in Charleston, telling AP in 2003: "What I write is certainly not set in South Carolina, but I have had a number of reviewers comment on the fact that I write with a distinctly Southern voice.

"It goes beyond more than simply where the story is set. I believe it is something we take in in the air and the water. It's a matter of word choices - of the rhythms of sentences and the rhythm of speech in particular."

Jordan had worked as a nuclear engineer before becoming a full time writer in 1977, AP said. He is survived by his wife, Harriet McDougal Rigney.


- NZHERALD STAFF

[04:00] Haha Katelyn: well.. i actually lied.
[04:00] Haha Katelyn: i live on jupiter :<
[04:00] CHeEt or 1010: makes since
[04:00] CHeEt or 1010: still 150 miles
[04:00] CHeEt or 1010: it's all a conpiratcy
[04:01] CHeEt or 1010: jupiter is actually 56 miles outside of chigao
[04:01] CHeEt or 1010: chicago*
[04:01] Haha Katelyn: SHHH GOSH DON'T GIVE IT AWAY
[04:01] Haha Katelyn: >: (
[04:01] CHeEt or 1010: :(
[04:01] Haha Katelyn: i can't trust you.
[04:01] Haha Katelyn: that's it. gosh.
[04:02] CHeEt or 1010: Noooo I one of the chosen ones to know
[04:02] CHeEt or 1010: Kyle Reinier sent me!!!
[04:02] Haha Katelyn: i.. what the! says who!
[04:02] Haha Katelyn: kyle reinier? bah! i recognize this name NOT!
[04:03] CHeEt or 1010: he also spells it Hugh Ellison
[04:04] CHeEt or 1010: maybe you know him by his middle name Chase Browning?
[04:04] Haha Katelyn: i know christopher huth NOT.
[04:04] Haha Katelyn: quit axin' me!
[04:05] CHeEt or 1010: come on, you know the grand leader of the conspiracy?? Chase Browning???
[04:05] CHeEt or 1010: 37 years ago?
[04:05] CHeEt or 1010: fax machine?
[04:05] Haha Katelyn: i've chosen to forget that small aspect of my life, thank you very much
[04:05] Haha Katelyn: you;ve just REMINDED ME!
[04:05] Haha Katelyn: SO LONG, $56,000 WORTH OF THERAPY!
[04:05] CHeEt or 1010: I'm sorry, hwo does that make you feel?
[04:06] CHeEt or 1010: *writes somethign down*
[04:06] Haha Katelyn: *rips couch apart*
[04:06] CHeEt or 1010: what exactly happened on the night of septmber 4th 1971?
[04:07] Haha Katelyn: ...*mouth full of couch stuffing* whaf haffenf seftemberf forf ifeebevebyen?
[04:08] Haha Katelyn: *spits it at you; runs around the room*
[04:08] CHeEt or 1010: Now you were with Chase on that night weren't?!
[04:08] CHeEt or 1010: you?!!!
[04:08] Haha Katelyn: YOU SAW NAHSING!
[04:08] Haha Katelyn: I KEPT MOST OF MY PANTS ON!
[04:08] CHeEt or 1010: DOES THE NAME H.A. GUERBER MEAN ANYTHIGN TO YOU!!!
[04:09] Haha Katelyn: he was only the man i thought i loved!! *sobbing uncontrollably*
[04:09] CHeEt or 1010: but when you found out he was an actor on broadway you threw him out that window didn't you!!
[04:10] Haha Katelyn: NO! i loved his stubbly face! i LOVED HIM
[04:10] CHeEt or 1010: then how did Chase fit into this? WE already know Linda, we know what you did with Chase, and we know what happen to Guerber
[04:11] Haha Katelyn: chase was my cat. :<
[04:11] Haha Katelyn: he was eaten by jelly, the goldfish
[04:11] CHeEt or 1010: and yet you had three children with him!!!!!!
[04:11] CHeEt or 1010: it's written in stone!!!
[04:11] CHeEt or 1010: There's blood on your hands Mrs. Dasher!
[04:12] Haha Katelyn: NO! NO! IT'S... O___O
[04:12] Haha Katelyn: IT CAN'T BE BLOOD! I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT
[04:12] CHeEt or 1010: *smashes the table against the wall*
[04:13] CHeEt or 1010: there's no use in hiding it "Rachel" if that's even your real name
[04:13] CHeEt or 1010: we have video footage
[04:13] Haha Katelyn: *sobbing, rocking back and forth* the eggplant and i are friends, the eggplant and i are friends, the eggplant AND I ARE FRIIEEENNNDDDSS
[04:13] Haha Katelyn: *eats the foot*
[04:14] CHeEt or 1010: that's what they programmed to think, 13 years of mental conditioning. Come on Ellen, I can feel it's all breaking, we are making progress.
[04:14] Haha Katelyn: but i thought i was RAQUELLE!
[04:15] Haha Katelyn: WHO AM I?@?@
[04:15] Haha Katelyn: </existential>
[04:15] CHeEt or 1010: Grandma Borgnein is firing upon her own allies
[04:15] CHeEt or 1010: what a briliant tactic
[04:15] Haha Katelyn: *reciting robert frost and edgar allan poe.. AT THE SAME TIME*
[04:16] CHeEt or 1010: Tell me Katherine, do you hold with those who favor fire??
[04:16] Haha Katelyn: i am made of sweet cream. why would i do that?
[04:16] CHeEt or 1010: must the world perish twice for you to see the destruction ice is also great and would suffice!
[04:17] Haha Katelyn: no.
[04:18] Haha Katelyn: i don't believe it.
[04:18] Haha Katelyn: you lie like a RUG
[04:18] Haha Katelyn: and i am hot.
[04:18] CHeEt or 1010: Then be free, free like a fox
[04:18] CHeEt or 1010: dance around the may pole mary, dances
[04:18] Haha Katelyn: like... a vixen or a todd? >____>
[04:19] CHeEt or 1010: your not looking at the big picture! the world doesn't revolve around blank, blank revolves around the world!
[04:20] Haha Katelyn: WELL I LOVED BLANK!
[04:20] Haha Katelyn: BLANK HAD A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART UNTIL HE MUCKED IT UP!
[04:20] Haha Katelyn: i will NEVER forgive blank.
[04:20] Haha Katelyn: NEVER
[04:21] CHeEt or 1010: *drops pants* hello admiral *salutes*
hello admiral *salutes*
Pass the ketchup
*barks twice*
[04:21] Haha Katelyn: oohhh so strange :D
[04:21] Haha Katelyn: but! i need to go to sleep
[04:21] Haha Katelyn: i wasn't lying; it's buring up in hurr
[04:22] CHeEt or 1010: lol this was fun
[04:22] CHeEt or 1010: oh and for future reference
[04:22] CHeEt or 1010: your cat
[04:22] CHeEt or 1010: chase browning
[04:22] CHeEt or 1010: who was also your cult leader and leader
[04:22] CHeEt or 1010: is me ^.^
[04:22] CHeEt or 1010: lol
[04:22] CHeEt or 1010: I just used my own name
[04:22] Haha Katelyn: oh! well i did, too
[04:22] Haha Katelyn: name's !BLANK!. pleased to meet you.
[04:23] CHeEt or 1010: I thought your name was katelyn?
[04:23] Haha Katelyn: i thought your name was hunter?
[04:23] CHeEt or 1010: lol touche'
[04:23] CHeEt or 1010: I go by hunter
[04:23] CHeEt or 1010: hello !BLANK!
[04:23] Haha Katelyn: hello chase :3
[04:24] CHeEt or 1010: :3
[04:24] CHeEt or 1010: ^>^
[04:24] Haha Katelyn: but! i shall talketh to thine at a later date!
[04:24] CHeEt or 1010: lol good night lovely person
[04:24] Haha Katelyn: <3

In the past few weeks much has happened. I finally started a new job which I enjoy muchly.

I also have my libby back I missed her so much, I'm glad to have my friend back.

I met a most very interesting individual and I have much in common with her.

Tonight I met another interesting individual, he's a friend of Midian (ah midian you have yet to fail at showing me something interesting) he is from germany and he's a black belt martial artist. Me and him stood on the back porch talking for about 2 hours roughly.also he made me happy by comfirming that my translation of something is correct. Which is:

Komm wir nehmen uns bei der Hand, führen uns in ein neues Land. Mit kindlischem Gemut und einer Illusion fangen wir jetzt an mit der Revolution.

My translation, confirmed by Hugh is:

Come take us by the hand lead us into a new land. With a childish disposition and an illusion brought on with the revolution.

That made me quite very happy. Today at work was fine, my fellow employee needed a ride home so he stayed at the mall my shift and hung out with me which made the day go by quicker and of course he helped out on a few things, also an old friend applied today then hung out and talked to me for a whiel. So all ogether the day went by well. Nothing hard.

( Which although a rant is now insighted. )

Ok so sorry bout that, built up for a while.

Ok so I'm staying up late again, I don't like it, I getting into a habit. But I enjoy talkign to my people. Bad choices......grr
1. nice conversations.
2. easy time getting to sleep.

That's all I believe. Good nights all the lovelies that I associate with ^.^

Then lastly for the sack of it ::grabs iPod and press shuffle songs:: Result:
Die Nachtwache By: E Nomine CD: Finsternis

That was fun.

A (12:22:06 AM): we never got past austria!
A (12:22:12 AM): she's like ... you eventually would've.
B (12:22:20 AM): What about Poland?
B (12:22:26 AM): Took over Poland pretty hardcore.
B (12:22:28 AM): Saw it on TV.
B (12:22:30 AM): It was hot.
B (12:22:32 AM): Wanna fuck?

You Are 35% Left Brained, 65% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

http://www.kheper.net/topics/intelligence/Herrmann.htm

personally think I'm A and C strong. I was once told that you are strong in two sections of your brain and weak in the other two.

Am Nachtzeit

Warum bleibst du an meine Seite?
Warum liegst du in meinen Armen?
Tröste ich dich?
Macht ich dich warmen?

Ich schätze mich tun.
Es ist die Miene an dein Gesicht
Das lesst deine Seele.
Doch du bist nür ein nicht.

Ich bekomme Wärme von dir,
Während Ich halte dich sanfte.
Ich fühle dein Leben in mir
Wann ich atme.

Warum musst dies ein Traume sein?
Ich erwache...
Sein...aleine.



At nightime

Why do you stay by my side?
Why do you lay in my arms?
Do I comfort you?
Do I make you warm?

I believe I do.
It is the look on your face
That reads to you soul.
But your not the only one.

I get warmth from you,
While I hold you gently.
I feel your life in me
When I breath.

Why must this be a dream?
I awake...
To be...Alone.

©2007 ~HunterCS


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So a short while ago I realized that I am somewhat living a lie. Few people actually know about me now. So I've decided to set things straight, show people the truth, and hopefully gather back the attention of people that I now realize I don't want to live without I guess you could say.

My name is Chase Addison Browning. I was born October 30th. 1987 sometime around 2 AM. I am 19. I'm in a fullfilling relationship and am on my way into a fullfilling career.

A year and a month ago I was reaching the end of my high school career. I was satisfied with myself, I really didn't have high expectations. I never have when it came to school, I just really didn't care. At the last week of my senior year, my world crashed around me. My ROTC teachers (which had hated me for 4 years, I do have very strong proof of this) had decided that my final exam was not satisfactory, and failed me. Which set off a chain of events leading to me not graduating. I tried to hide this for a whole year. I even went as far as to talk to people about the graduation as if I had been there, they didn't know, it was their big day. No one even realized I wasn't there.

I've always had a large amount of acquaintances but I've never had a large number of friends. I've gone through several "best" friends, but I've always only had one true best friend.

I've been in love, really in love I guess, three times. The first failed miserably because of my own faults and now she has distanced herself from me in every way she could have and completely erased me from her life. Since I'm an upfront person I will straight off say that she is one of the people I'm hoping this will reach out too. The second also failed because of me, although I loved her I just wasn't satisfied. I don't like to be in any situation where I'm not completely satisfied unfortunately. Unlike the first though I'm still very important to her, which I am happy for. And although we are not really very close anymore I still enjoy spend what little time I get to spend with her, preferably without her douchebag boyfriend in the picture lol. And lastly I love my girlfriend, and I have loved her for well over a year. Last Sunday we celebrated the ending of the first year of our relationship and the beginning of a second.

After my "graduation" my parents moved to Oklahoma, this was already planned a year in advance of course and had nothing to do with me. In truth my dad got a new job that payed 30 thousand move a year. I stayed here though.

I've lived several places since then. After losing my third shift job at a gas station (boo-hoo) I got by on doing chores and running errands and such for everyone I lived with. That is until my car broke down. Now I live with my best friend and my second family. I run errands for them, I do yard work and small renovations and I just try to be productive.

My hair has grown about 8 inches or so in the past year and has only been trimmed once. It went from being trimmed to the scalp in a military cut. To being worn in a ponytail most of the time.


Nowadays I have a home, I have a good life. I have fun, mostly table-top roleplaying and such but that is what I do. I have a very strong relationship. I have a career, I am working at The Kentucky Center for the Preforming Arts for a small production company called Of Sight and Sound. I do the Lighting programming, hanging, design, and production for them. I love this career, mostly because it's an amazing jump into a world that normally only the best get into. People like me start out in small community $3 dollars plays. They don't start out at the Center of the Arts, that's where Broadway plays are at. I love it.

Summary:
I'm 19.
I have a girlfriend of a year
I love her
I'm producing the lights for a play called The God of Hell
That play is being shown at the Center of the Arts
I still find it hard to believe ^
I'm a Table-top roleplayer
I run a D20 Modern game
I play in a Star Wars game
I'm pretty happy right now.

You'll notice that my summary barely covers anything I said up there. The reason is, nothing up there matters much anymore and only serves as memories. The only thing that matters is now. That's what we're living. Now I'm happy, and it's been about a year and half since the last time I was happy and pleased with my life.

Will you reexamine yourself?

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